We were deep in conversation about suffering and their attachment to suffering. It wasn’t a pattern that they wanted to continue and yet couldn’t seem to break out of the pattern and cycle of it. They had looked at where the pattern started in this life, they had completely unpacked the experiences that led to this pattern and understood the experiences deeply. They had looked at a past life where they had died in a profound form of suffering for standing solidly in who they were and how they wanted to love. They had a full understanding that this was a pattern that they came into this life to heal and transmute but just couldn’t break through the pattern in their lived experience. We explored the stories that they told around suffering and had multiple times spoken through how to change these stories and how to create new pathways in their brain. On this particular day, we were talking about how they had a story that suffering was noble, which they fully owned and also laughed at, knowing that the story doesn’t serve them.
We drifted back into conversation about a past life that they had accessed and experienced again. They were saying how frustrating it was to have died like this.
“What is the point? So, I died and suffered and now I carry suffering around lifetime after lifetime trying to break out of it” they said.
We spoke through how they were standing for love in that life and ultimately were tortured and killed for the way that they wanted to love. That they were part of a collective shift that was happening and continues to happen.
“So, you are saying that suffering is noble” they said to me with a laugh.
“No, promoting change is noble and suffering was simply a byproduct. Change is very fluid energy and suffering can be very stagnant energy, what if you rewrite the story that you tell, that change is noble and suffering is simply a byproduct that we get to move through.” I suggested.
They closed their eyes, put their hand over their heart and nodded. Even if their mind didn’t fully understand, their heart, body and spirit understood what I said and got it.