I was aimlessly scrolling through social media lying sideways in my bed, tucked in with a pile of pillows made into a nest. The birds were beginning to chirp and the night was fading into day.

I closed my eyes and asked myself, is this how you want to spend your time?

The answer came easily and quickly. No, no it is not. I tossed my phone on the bed and climbed out. I had spent the better part of 2 weeks dealing with back pain that had demanded me to look at my self care practice. I had made a promise to myself that I would take better care of my physical health and wellness, that I was worth spending more time on, that my body was beautiful and worth investing in deeply.

I walked naked down the stairs, grabbed a water bottle and walked towards the door to the porch. I noticed my discomfort with walking around the house naked despite the fact that I was alone and everyone was sleeping. I wasn’t trying to deny any emotions, I was simply feeling them and being with these emotions.

As I opened the door to the porch I was met with the morning chill of spring and the smell of blooming flowers, reminding me of how sweet growth can be.

I unclipped the cover of the hot tub and flipped it open. As I slipped into the warm water I took a deep breath of the spring air, knowing that it was medicine for my heart, mind, body and soul. I sat with my eyes closed in meditation without a desire to check the time or be anywhere other than exactly where I was. When I came back to my body I allowed myself to slowly integrate my meditation while I stretched my arms, legs, back, and neck.

The love that I had found for my body was new and I was still exploring it. I had spent years and years hating my body and when I had experienced my recent back pain spirit asked me what would happen if I loved my body. Yeah…… I pondered what would happen. What would life be like if I loved my body? So, I started to love my body and was blown away at how good it felt.