I was feeling overwhelmed by the volume of noise and stimulation. I had walked into the room and 3 people were all trying to talk to me at the same time. Each one, speaking over the others and asking me to answer them.

I wanted to run away. I wanted to run away as quickly as I could. I felt short of breath even though I didn’t have a reason and then it hit me that I was holding my breath. I realized that I was trying to answer one of them but my mind wasn’t able to follow my own thought pattern as my awareness kept being pulled to the volume of stimulation that was still coming at me.

“I am sorry” I said and then paused without meaning to. “I can’t even think” I said, finishing my thought pattern. They all stopped speaking and in the moment of silence I felt like I could breathe again.

No one said anything for a moment and it allowed me the space to regulate myself. “I can’t think when you are all asking me questions at the same time” I said as I continued to focus on grounding my energy.

All of a sudden, I realized that my hands were moving. I looked down at them and couldn’t help but laugh. My hands were shaking “no”. I pointed it out to them. “Can you see what my hands are doing?” I asked.

They all acknowledged what my hands were doing.

“The body is the voice of the unconscious” I said to them. “Our bodies express what we are thinking and feeling, sometimes when we don’t even realize it” I said with a laugh.

My body was clearing saying “no thank you, please stop”.