Dear Mum,
Picking you as my mother was one of the best decisions I ever made. I don’t have full memories of everything that happened before I came here to be human, but I have the deepest knowing that I hand-picked you. I could have picked anyone, but I picked you and I will pick you again.
Your love for me is relentless. It is humbling in a way that I have a hard time putting words to. There are no limits to the ways that you will show up for me. From nighttime stories, to countless nights swimming after dinner, to teaching me about the difference between power and empowerment, to accepting parts of me that you didn’t understand, to loving my babies almost as intensely as I do, to looking me in the eyes and telling me that I needed to work on myself, to cooking me dinner, you never stop showing up.
Every time I have made a decision that wasn't inside your comfort zone, you allowed me the space to make mistakes, you allowed me the freedom to figure out who I am without ever having to do it alone. You stood by me with every decision, with every move, with every step that felt scary. You stood silently in the background. You almost never got credit. You weren’t comfortable in that position, and honestly, I wasn’t good at giving it, but you were there for everything that I have done.
You taught me to love family, the land, magick, healing, and myself. You keep teaching me, and I know that you will be one of my deepest mentors for as long as I move through this human experience.
You are relentless. Your love is relentless. The way that you show up for me is intense and never leaves me wondering. In fact, it created the stable base that I needed to be able to be the person who I am today.
So, I will pick you again, given the choice.
Occasionally, I will get asked to make a wish on a star or at a wishing well, and one of my favorite wishes is to wish that everyone on earth gets to know the kind of love that you are and give.
I love you and I would promise that I will be easier to parent in the next life, but we both know that isn’t true. So I will simply say that I love you and I appreciate you more than you will ever understand.
Erin