I felt a tingle flow through my body and recognized that I was leaning my torso backwards away from him. I observed myself shifting in my chair. My body was talking to me about the discomfort that it was feeling. He kept pressing me to respond and make a decision that I wasn’t feeling ready to make yet. “These are your choices” he said as he outlined the two choices that he thought I had. The reality is that there are infinite choices and possibilities and I wasn’t about to let him tell me that there were only two.I had learned a long time ago that there are always more options and choices than I believe there are, I just need to adjust my mindset and what I think is possible.

The honest truth was that I needed time to think through the implications of each option and I didn’t have the time to think everything through at that moment. I also needed time to expand my mindset and what I thought was possible. Often, the answer to my problem is outside of the scope of what I am currently able to see and it takes me time to adjust my mindset. If I answered now, it would be from a place of reacting rather than responding and I wasn’t willing to do that.

Additionally, my body was reacting to the way that he was pressuring me. I didn’t like it. If I am being fully transparent, someone trying to control me never lands well. It didn’t land well when I was a small child and it absolutely doesn’t land well as an adult.

“I am going to think about it and get back to you” I said with a cheeky smile.

“What?” he asked, clearly confused by my lack of commitment to his demands for an answer.

“Yeah” I said as I stood up, “I will let you know”. I wasn’t about to let him pull me out of my own energy, he simply didn’t have that kind of power over me. It was my life. These were my choices and I was going to make them when I was ready and not because some random man was demanding an answer from me.