I drifted slowly in and out of my physical body, playing with energy and allowing myself to begin to disconnect from my human body. I knew this sensation well as I had learned this during a meditation with a spirit shaman mentor. This playful energy drifting in and out of my body would eventually lead to disconnecting from my body and leaving the earthly plane to experience things not in this realm.
For years, prior to meeting this spirit shaman mentor, I had journeyed with spirit mentors on the earthly plane. Almost immediately upon closing my eyes for meditation a spirit mentor would show up and take me somewhere on the earthly plane to learn, heal and grow. It was some of the most powerful work I did. The transition to journeying out of the earthly plane started to happen when I met a different mentor, a spirit shaman mentor who I hadn’t met here on earth, but certainly knew. He was unlike any of the other mentors who I had worked with. He was present with me the first time that I went into other realms and back to the universe.
On one journey to the universe I got to make a decision about living or dying. He stood with me when I made a decision of whether I wanted to return to being human or if I wanted to stay at the universe. It wasn’t until months later that I understood that making that decision was a test. He wouldn’t have shown me how to disconnect fully from my body if I had made the choice to stay at the universe. In fact I don’t think he would have allowed me to make that decision. If I thought I was going to make that decision he would have realized that I wasn’t capable or able to do the work that he would go on to do with me. He wouldn’t have allowed me to die and I do not think that he would have wanted to do the work that he is doing with me now if I had tried to make the choice to die. He needed to know that I was all in. He needed to know that I was all in on living. He supports me in pressing the boundaries of how far I can go as a soul while still being human. Without his level of deep knowing that I am all in on living, he couldn’t do the work with me that he is doing.
I am all in on living. All in. I want to experience everything that being human has to offer.
