I wrote this blog post when I was a very different version of myself. I had a life changing event and see myself and this reality very differently now. I thought about deleting it but realized that there is a lesson in understanding personal growth. I am not separate from the wife, husband or friend. I am one with each of them making this a lesson to myself about personal responsibility on a much higher level.
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I compassionately looked between the three of them, the wife, the husband and the friend.
“I understand that you are uncomfortable with what you are feeling and the emotions that are openly being communicated. What I don’t understand is why you need to place blame on me. Your relationship, as I looked between the friend and the husband, is your responsibility. The way that you engage with each other, the energy that you put into each other is and always will be solidly on the two of you. I turned and looked between the husband and wife, the lack of connection and lack of open communication between the two of you is and always will be solidly on the two of you. I didn’t create that, I wasn’t involved with that and I am not responsible for that. You each have personal responsibility here and your inability to own that is between you, yourself and the universe. I own my personal responsibility and it is simple. I told one of you to not carry shame for the emotions in your heart, to own them and I am not sorry. I didn’t tell you what to do with them, I encouraged you to own them. I encouraged you to trust your relationships and connection and the three of you would be capable of working through whatever emotions were present. I own that and I would do it again. I am not responsible for the situations that you each put yourself in and honestly I don’t like that you are placing blame on me because you can’t look at yourself. Don’t enter into these types of connections if you can’t handle the impact that it will have and certainly don’t project that bullshit on me.” The statements were made with genuine love for each and every one of the individuals involved. I knew solidly that this wasn’t on me but I also knew that there was a lesson in inviting them to own their personal responsibility as I had been invited to own mine.
I woke with a jump. I smiled, rolled over and drifted back into sleep knowing that I had finally finished processing the situation and that on some level our interaction in dream state would reach them.
