Dance and sexual energy

I had watched her dance multiple times and I couldn’t decide if I loved it or hated it but it absolutely brought intense emotions for me and I was pretty sure that I loved it.

I was sitting silently in meditation speaking with one of my guides about sex, sexuality and sexual energy. I was exploring how she was able to be very sensual and sexual without throwing sexual energy out into the space, which was interesting to me.  She poured all of the sexual energy back into herself.

“I should have a discussion with her about sexual energy and dance” I said.

“Why?” my guide asked back.

The question was enough to disrupt my thought pattern and shift me. In that space of shift I realized quickly that I was looking to have this conversation because I wanted to emulate her. Not more than a moment later I came back to myself. I didn’t need to understand her process. I needed to understand mine. I am a different person than her, I move through the world in a different way, my lessons are different, my purpose is different and by emulating anyone but myself I was pulling myself away from myself and out of alignment and away from my lessons, purpose and self. I needed to sit with myself and the way that I throw or do not throw sexual energy and have a discussion with myself which is exactly what I did. I sat with myself and my guides and had an open and intense discussion about dance and sexual energy and my guides had suggestions that likely never would have come from another person, but they came so clearly and easily from my guides who are here to support me through my human process. 

I landed in a beautiful space. I landed in a space where I wanted to play with my sexual energy and see how it made me feel. I wanted to play with my sexual energy to see how it impacted me and others when I pushed the energy out into the room vs pulling it into myself in a purposeful way rather than being non-purposeful with throwing sexual energy.