“Your job as the facilitator is to do 5 things” he explained. We went over the first 4 that were obvious. I sat listening to him and realizing that his words felt sharp and clear to me, meaning that there was medicine in them for me. The universe was making his words “pop” out for a reason. I knew in the moment that I was hearing him and that even though his words were making sense to me, I wouldn’t understand the true depth of the words until later.

“The 5th part of your job is the most important” he said. My eyes closed as I allowed my body, heart and soul to fully receive what he was saying even if my mind couldn’t fully comprehend the depth of what he was saying. 

“Your job is to hold the vibration of the container. If you can not hold the vibration then you are not holding the container” he said in a simple matter-of-fact way. There was no charge in his voice, it was like he was stating something so simple and so clear that he didn’t need charge or emotion around it, it simply was. 

“Oh course” I thought to myself as I sat with my back against the wall and my eyes closed. Of course it is our job to hold the vibration of the container, this is simple to understand and yet I knew that there was something that my mind had not fully received yet. I sat in silence feeling the sensation of the wall against my back, it felt stable and solid and supportive. It felt like it was holding me so that I didn’t have to hold me. It felt like divine masculine energy so that I could be in the feminine and find flow. 

I drifted between worlds as I listened to him playing the harmonica and then the guitar. He sang to us and played music as we explored the depths of our souls and the authentic way that we move through the world. He was demonstrating how to hold the vibration of a container and I knew that he was teaching me as much as I was willing to learn but much of his teaching would never be spoken, it would be taught through vibration.

Six months later, I sat in meditation and this memory came back to me. It hit me like a freight train on a dark night and I felt sidelined by it. When he said that it was our job to hold the vibration of the container, what he was saying was that it was our job to titrate the participants nervous systems by using sound and vibrational healing which would create the purge of survival energy stuck in the participants nervous systems. As I felt the magnitude of his teaching I felt my body gasp for air as my chest rose and fell deeply and his teaching fully landed.