“What is happening in your head right now?” he asked.

“I am pissed” I said back. 

“Ohhhhhh, good!” he flashed a smile at me. 

We both knew that I had been sitting in the soul lesson of this experience. I had been zoomed out 30 thousand miles looking at it from a soul growth standpoint. What I hadn’t done, was sit in the human pain of the experience. This is the funny thing about it, it was in the second that I zoomed in and sat in the human experience that I found a second soul lesson. 

You see, this is the thing. I am a soul having a human experience. I got so focused on soul growth that I forgot that I was human and needed to sit in the humanness of the experience. The moment that I zoomed in and felt the human experience I got pissed. I was pissed that someone had been so careless with my emotions. How the fuck dare she? How dare she be careless with my heart and soul?  I fucking trusted her. She opened my heart, wide open and then she hurt me. I trusted her and she hurt me. Not only did she hurt me, she was downright cruel. She soaked me with the snake venom that she was spewing. 

As I zoomed in, I found the second soul lesson. I wasn’t the only person who she was spewing snake venom on. I wasn’t special. She did it frequently, which I understood but up until this point I didn’t realize that there was a lesson in this. The second lesson is that I wasn’t special. I literally wasn’t special. She was cruel to many. I had planned to walk away, silently slipping into the darkness without a word. But, fuck that. Why allow a snake to spew venom knowing that it would hurt or even kill the next victim that it crossed.. So…… I was pissed and he flashed a smile at me.