It wasn’t what I had planned in my head. But, then again, what really is? I learned a long time ago to surrender and follow the flow that the universe is showing me. I could have forced the situation, I honestly could have. I knew that I could have made it exactly what I wanted but when I got there, when I got to the space that I was forcing, would it feel like what I wanted it to feel like? Likely not. So, why bother grasping at control and forcing it?

I was aware that my physical body was reacting to this shift in vision. I was holding tension and tightness in my shoulders and arms and around my eyes. 

I took a deep breath and allowed the tension in my body to leave with the exhale of breath.

A phrase ran through my mind “You can’t change it” but the truth was that I could change it. I could use control and I could force it to change. I simply wasn’t making that choice. I wasn’t picking control, I was picking surrender. I was allowing the universe to guide me, even if I didn’t understand why. So, I responded back to the phrase, “I simply pick not to change it.” I pick peace, even if it wasn’t the original vision that I had in my head. Forcing the situation would feel like the opposite of peace. Accepting it, embracing it and loving the new situation felt like peace to me. It felt like ease. I wanted peace and ease, I didn’t want control and fighting. So, I consciously picked it. I picked to allow myself to be led by the universe and I picked to surrender into what the situation was meant to be despite the vision that I had in my mind. I didn’t look back. I didn’t question the shift. I didn’t have regrets. I had peace and I had ease.