She was still talking but I had stopped listening. She was going over all of the long term implications. I knew that she was talking but none of the words were sinking in. I had been lost in my own thoughts for multiple minutes. 

Anything that I had put my mind to, I had done. When I wanted to get into Springfield College for Physical Therapy, I did. When I wanted to graduate with a 4.0 from my doctorate, I did. When I wanted to buy a house, I did. When I wanted the job in the lakes region, I got it. When I wanted to run a half marathon, I did. When I wanted to run a full marathon, I did. When I wanted to give birth without pain medication, I did. When I wanted to have my babies at home, I did. When I wanted to start my own business, I did. When I wanted to work full-time in my own business, I did.

The places in my life where I decided to put energy and attention were the places in my life where I saw results. The things that I wanted only required me to align with them energetically and vibrationally and then I got them. 

Why was this any different? Why had I not been able to accomplish this? The answer was simple, even if I didn’t want to see it. I hadn’t been able to accomplish this because I hadn’t actually believed that I could. The reality is that this part of my life was no different than any other part of my life, it is just that I decided that it was different…… it wasn’t. It wasn’t different at all. I had just created a story that I couldn’t, and so I couldn’t. But, what if I just created a story that I could? What if I decided that this was no different than anything else in my life? What if I created a new story and what if I decided to put energy and attention towards it. What if? 

I realized that she had stopped speaking. I smiled back at her. “Thank you” I said gently. “This gives me a lot to think about” I responded but I wasn’t talking about the information that she was providing, I was talking about the shift in mindset that the conversation had created. 

This area of my life was no different than any other, it was only different because I decided that it was. Now that I could see that so clearly, I got to decide what story I told. As I walked out of the building I started creating a new story, one that felt true in my mind, heart and body. I could do any fucking thing that I wanted and this was no different.