“Where is the easier approach?” he asked.

I smiled back and before I could answer he spoke again.

“I don’t want to go this deep. I don’t want to feel all of my feelings. I don’t want to look at myself this deeply” he said.

I smiled again and left a moment of silence. “You can absolutely find that” I said. “But, you can’t find it here”. You see, I am just not that girl. I am not the girl who you go to see when you want gentle energy. I am not the girl that you go to when you want to go an inch deep. I am not the girl who you go to when you want to avoid yourself and your bullshit. I am not that girl. I never have been that girl and honestly I can’t see that I ever will be that girl. I am the girl who you go to when you want to change your life.  I am the girl who you go to when you don’t want to avoid yourself. I am the girl who you go to when you want to take a long look in the mirror and ask yourself if you like your life or if you want to heal and change. I am the girl who you go to when you want to take radical responsibility for your life. I am the girl who you go to when you are done being a victim and ready to surrender to all that this beautiful life has to offer you. I will meet you with every ounce of love that I have in my mind, body, heart and spirit but I will also ask you to show up intensely for yourself. I will ask you to work hard. I will ask you to be vulnerable. I will ask you to be raw. I will ask you to be real. I will love and encourage you but if you came to me with the expectation that you could avoid your healing then you came to the wrong place. There is nothing wrong with those practitioners, in fact they are the exact energy that so many people want and need but I am just not that person. I am very clear on who I am and who I am not. I like who I am and I like the way that I show up in this world. I pick this path and I pick this approach and I know that it won’t be right for everyone but I don’t know how to show up in any way other than radical authenticity.