I was walking in circles in the pool while crying. I was mad, and I was sad, and I had taken myself out to the pool to force myself to slow down and feel all of my feelings connected to the situation earlier that day. I have always found water calming and an easy way to release my emotions and I have always found physical movement an easy way to connect with the way that my emotions feel inside of my body. 

I walked in circles and cried until I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I noticed that my mind kept jumping to the future and I had to keep coming back to my body, back to the present moment, back to what I was feeling right now. My mind wanted to jump to figuring out the pathway out and to predicting what would happen, but I knew this was total bullshit, and I wasn’t going to allow my mind to play this game with me. I knew that feeling my emotions and the sensations of my emotions would eventually show me the pathway out. 

Then, I noticed my hand was pressed against my chest. I hadn’t even realized that I had placed it there. For just a moment, I wondered how long it had been there. I brought my awareness to what it felt like to have my hand against my chest. What the contact of my hand on my heart felt like. It was comforting. It was gentle and loving. It was soothing. As I felt the contact, I noticed that my breathing slowed and I took multiple spontaneous deep breaths. I kept my awareness on how the contact between my hand and my chest felt and as my body calmed, the answer hit me like a bolt of lightning. It was so clear and it had been there all along. 

I stopped walking and began to float in the water. “I love you body” I thought to myself. Wasn’t it amazing? Wasn’t it simply amazing that my body knew exactly what I needed? That my body was so smart that it knew how to comfort me. I was in absolute wonder about how amazing it is to be human and how we came designed so perfectly. That we have this phenomenal body that knows exactly what we need if we can just listen. 

When I embarked on getting certified as a somatic practitioner, I never imagined that it would be this magickal. I never imagined that somatic healing would have such a profound impact on me as a person and on my business. Simply by moving my awareness through the 5 different channels (mind, imagination, body posture, inner sensations, and emotions), I could easily get clarity on a pathway forward in less than 10 minutes. 

My eyes were closed and water filled my ears as I floated in the water. I loved the sensation of the sun on my face and the water on my back. 

How lucky I am….. How lucky I am to be alive and to be me.