I wrinkled my nose and pulled my head back. It was the physical manifestation of my energetic response to his comment. I was rejecting it. I was having a temper tantrum internally. 

“Are you kidding me” wanted to come out of my mouth.

“Not fair”.

“WAHHHHHHHHH”

I sat solidly in the victim seat for a solid 90 seconds and felt my emotions fully. Then, in silence I accepted his feedback. Fine, what if it is true? But, still in the victim role I tried to reason and rationalize with his comment. I had done the work, I had followed the diet. I had given up caffeine. I had eaten clean. I had done the things. Yet, somewhere in my body I also knew that he was correct. I never responded to him, I just sat with my emotions.

Hours later, I told Kevin how I felt. “That is bullshit” I said.

“I know babe” he responded.

“I was far more clean in my diet than you were.”

“I know” he said with compassion in his voice.

“He told me that my physical body wasn’t as prepared as yours but I did more work, it isn’t fair” I said and then paused in silence. “But, it doesn’t matter, it is the truth. Comparing myself to you doesn’t actually matter. The long and short of the situation is that my body isn’t where it needs to be for the healing session and I can reject that all that I want but it is the truth.”

When I got all done having my fit, I allowed his feedback to fully wash over me. He was telling me how to be a better version of myself. The amount of preparation that I had done was irrelevant, the situation still remained the same, I needed to do more and it doesn’t matter what anyone else needs. I am a wildly sensitive person and this is no exception. It was a beautiful lesson in what I needed to work on and also why comparing myself to anyone else is pointless and irrelevant. It is only about where I can grow and focusing on anyone other than me is a waste of my time and energy. So, I accepted it fully and vowed to work harder on it.